EZly Entertained?

rite now, it’s snowing petty good out. its 10:45 in the morning, & a brite sunny day.  (u guessed it, montana! did i mention that i love montana?)  anyway - things can b kinda tuff 2 read sometimes, aye?  

like the other morning (yesterday?, maybe…), i woke up making these rather awful gurgley snuffly hitching noises, not too unusual, regarding my early morn dry crusty montana airways, etc, but again - hard to read.  my wsu comes running out 2 chek up on me (o, k - that wsu = wonderful spousal unit, now & 4evr!, k?).  she has me on a Baby Monitor! - how please-God-awful-embarrassing!  i actually cudn’t tolerate it Xcept its kindofa a cool 1 i built myself, u no, in a lit’l cardboard box completely rap’d up in camo duct tape? motion detector alarm?, & tada! - wireless streaming video cam with full color day & infrared nite lites too! (the Best part?!? - all from used ebay parts for < 50$, not the 500$ the ‘boys with noise’ want!!!  HAHA, (ok it doesn’t have tan & pilt or zoom, but it has Great sound!)).  which i built for the perfectly legitimate purpose of hunting coons, on my side deck, &, well, keep’n an eye on all our deck-dwelling feral cats, which r not only an Xcellent source of entertainment, but if they only Knew i was watch’n em wud b SOOO INCENSED!!!, makes it worth the $ just thinkn about it!  [wud somebody please count bak n c if i closed all my parenthetical loops? - i’m get’n a head ache, thanx]

so. ok - where were we?…   oya, she Monitors me!,   & i let her, cause, cause, she loves me?(!), i guess?  ok.  and - and - well, she worries, but she really needs quality sleep time too! - so its our compromise, get it?    and here she wakes up to all these strange noises com’n from me, who looks to b basically sleep’n (shudda been sleep’n, anyway), with maybe just a bit of jerking thrown in on video - can’t really blame her for runnin out 2 chek! - but me?, i’m hav’n hysterics!  (also not unusual, u will no, if ‘n u read round here much).  

laughin my proverbial butt off, to use the common proverb, which is very apt!

just waking up from a dream in which i had been out on an all-day outing with my brother (looking Much younger, btw) with some random kids &/or grandkids (bit fuzzy here), walking in some nice green park - but basically i guess i had been keep’n everybody entertained by the fact that i was so totally entertained by this little kid that had sorta adopted me, & we were having such a good time playing 2gether - like, ALL day! - & i sorta had no anxiety at all about his parents, sorta know they were rite around keep’n an eye on things as well, sorta knew they were as entertained as the rest, just somethin their their kid did with strangers in a park - but this was bak b4 that was such a nonono!, u no?

the Brother in Question! (diff kid - thanx Julia!)

anyway - at the end of the day, pack’n up & head’n 4 the gate, sure nuff - up comes dad, big grin on his face, thank’n us all 4 keep’n his boy occupied all day, & MY Brother goes over, & with his lit’l trademark quizzical (“is this actually quite worth this?”) grin on his face, digs out a $10 bill, & somewhat hesitantly, look’n rite at me - hands it ovr 2 the dad, in acknowledgement that He (They) had actually been the ones to come out on top for the afternoon, by having Me so totally occupied all day so as to keep Me outa His hair (of which, le’me tell U, he has Very Little!!).  U realize how much 10$ was worth in thoz daz?!?!?  stinker.

it was just so Stink’n funny,

woke up the wsu  ;-(

Good Medicine!

woke up laughing again!

actually - this time it was a full-blown case of the giggles.  totally out of control - giggles.  what Fun to have a good laugh, especially with good friends!  ‘Friends?, u mite ask?, i thot u said u were sleeping?’  yes indeed - i was, but i wasn’t alone!  i was dreaming about my awesome friends the Swick girls! that wud b gaby, & ana, & katherine, & maybe even sarah (not sure, this was a loooong time ago, in the dream, & she was really little then!, but certainly a good giggler even so!). details?, circumstances?, - nope, not this time.  no recollection at all of what else mite have been going on in the dream, or who else mite have been involved, but whatever it was - it sure was hilarious!  

He will yet fill your mouth with laughter; A joyful heart is good medicine; 

(Proverbs 17:22, Psalm 126:2, Job 8:21, etc!)

i am in need of all the ‘good medicine’ i can get!

& laughter sure tastes betr than most of the rest of it! hahahahaha!

dealing with this cancer (stage 4 sarcoma, hemangiopericytoma, cantaloupe-sized tumor in leg, mets & secondaries all over (lungs, bones, lymph nodes, etc) - it all looks pretty grim, in the natural.  & it doesn’t feel very good either.  BUT - i have the advantage of knowing ‘the End of the Story’!  God is the Lord who healeth me. (Jehovah-rapha, Exodus 15:26) 

so - indeed, stay tuned - more miracles to come!

& yes - i was sleeping in my ‘miracle chair’ when i was so ‘rudely’ (sic! hahaha) awakened!

but not 2 worry - i just went rite bak 2 sleep!  :-)

the miracle chair

with all my troubles sleeping, broken chair & unable to use bed, etc, i realized yesterday that i was in desperate need of a power recliner (1 that would not only recline by motor, but lift & tip u out by motor - like we had for mom b4 she died (but we sold)).  my old chair had a broken foot-lift, wudn’t go up, & with my broken rib, i couldn’t operate the lever anyway.  plus, it wouldn’t rock forward, so, even tho i could sleep in it, i couldn’t get out of it without help (& lots of it!). 

so - i thot 2 myself, hmm - if your going 2 believe in prayer, & a God who answers prayer, u shud b able 2 pray for one.  then of course, i thot - hmm, i Am praying for healing, so if i pray for a chair to help me cope with this disease, does that mean i’m not believing for healing? talked it ovr with sue, & we decided no, 1 does not necessarily negate the other (clearly, there r things going on here that we r not aware of, we do not c the whole picture (yet)).  

so - i asked God for a new chair.  (of course, i also put an add in the paper, but that wont even start for 2 more days; & i wrote to the VA 2 ask if they had any programs that mite help - but anything there takes months…), and i really needed this chair NOW if i was going to be able to get any real sleep (a couple of nites ago, i even ended up in my desk chair, face down on the dining room table, with my hands tied around a pillow to keep from sliding off while asleep! - sue found me there in the morning!).  

anyway - all this just to say that before the day was out, some friends of ours show’d up at our door with a donated power recliner that not only works, & fits, & is clean(!), but the color actually perfectly matches the couch (Not something i had prayed about, but something that is definitely important to Some people that also have to live with this furniture in their house!!)

[i should probably add that i had, of course, looked at the possibility of buying one, but these suckers start at around $600 (for a real cheapie, & even there way out of our current price range!) and go to upwards of $1.5K. & this is a Nice one! AND, it came with a good-as-new ‘roho’ cushion, which in & of it’s own runs for ~$300!]

you r probably wondering, about now, something like - ok, did you ask your friend for a chair, or what, how did they know?  well, i’m glad u asked.  & itsa good question.  this friend happens 2 b a teacher in the school where sue also teaches, & yes, sue did mention to her on fri that we could use a new chair (sue & i had talked about it i guess thurs nite - but I didn’t pray for one until sat morning).  this teacher friend in turn prayed with her class that i needed a new recliner.  she prayed again sat (she’s like that), and at that time she say’s “God show’d me a woman’s face, & a chair”. she then called this woman, who confirmed that yes, she had such a chair in storage, & yes, she would be willing to part with it.  they then went to look it over, see if it really was what i needed, & it was, so they picked it (& the cushion) up, & brought it here.  end of story.  now, aren’t you glad you asked?  

& yes - i got a good 10 hrs of sleep last nite, without pain, & without help getting in or out.

& yes - THAT is a Miracle!

Paint-ball attack with Tom

woke up laughing, again…

this time i had been dreaming about a paint-ball war with tom bellomo!  

he & i had cooked up this idea about getting some paint-ball guns, and storming my workplace shooting everybody - a great practical joke idea (tho we worked at a different place).

i decided to pre-empt the plan a bit, & snuck out later that day, and bought a couple of paint-ball pistols.  then i went to tom’s workplace & buzzed the floor manager (it was something like a wholesale company up on an upper floor, where i had to go up the stairs & wait at a locked gate for the employee to come to me - no admittance to non-employees).  tom had planned on being gone that day on some little trip, but i thot i wud give it a try just in case - & sure enuf, turned out his trip had been cancelled & he was there.  

as soon as he came to the door, i blasted him with the paint-ball gun!  we had a good laugh, & decided to go thru with our plan rite then & there.

so, the 2 of us went to my workplace (about 35 or 40 ppl at their desks in a big open room, with the owner in a glassed in office off to one side).  we had gotten the idea on the way to add knit ski masks to our outfits.   as soon as we burst in & started shooting, i got the inspiration to go after the owner - tho i wasn’t sure what his reaction would be.  i rushed into his office & peppered him with paintballs! he ended up rolling on the floor hollering!  

before he could object too much, it came to me how to forestall his possible angry reaction - i whipped off my mask & handed it to him with the gun, saying “quick! go out there & shoot everybody!”  tom had followed me into the office, so, he too stuck his gun into the owner’s other hand & said “here - use both hands!”

we were all laughing together when, i woke up.

Did I ever tell you - Part II

Then there was the time, about a year later, when I was stationed in Guam…

My favorite pastime there was snorkeling, which I got fairly proficient at.  Enough so that it even got a bit boring paddling around in the very restricted & shallow lagoon waters, marvelous as they were.  My ventures started taking me outside the reef, once I got over my initial fear, and ‘took the plunge’!  Out there - well, that is a different world entirely.  Deep vertical canyons open out towards the open ocean, with coral walls and pristine white sand floors.  These water wedges in the reef are full of totally tropical fish, flowering coral of all shapes, sizes, colors; the coral reef itself is porous, like a huge rock sponge.  Some of the openings are even large enough to swim into, but the dark interiors are anything but inviting - home to octopus and eels, and who knows what all else.  You feel like you are swimming in an aquarium full of tropical fish, but the scale is off - the fish are up to 3 or 4 feet long!, and the sand floor is about 80 feet down.  You are just one more creature among thousands, they mostly act like you’re not even there (unless you try to touch one - not a chance!).  They are all routinely going about the business of hunting & eating each other, and that makes you pause, and wonder…

Great care must be taken in this very foreign environment.  One always wears sneakers inside your flippers, and gloves with rubberized palms, and if you absolutely must poke something, you do it with your diving knife or spear tip, never your finger.  You guard against any inadvertent skin contact, as live coral stings, and dead coral is razor sharp, and nearly every living thing has teeth or spines or poisons of some kind.  It’s totally ‘Look but Don’t Touch’.  But just looking, just being there is so incredibly awesome - it’s truly one of the most thrilling experiences available on the planet!

And it’s addicting.  Once bitten, it’s hard to stay away.  I rarely snorkeled alone on Guam, as I had dragged most of my friends out with me, and they were most always up for another go.  There was this one afternoon though, when I couldn’t find anyone to take along, but just couldn’t NOT go anyway.  So out there I was, in my favorite spot on the north shore, outside the reef, way down deep in a canyon, chasing this huge parrot fish with my waterproof nikon, trying for that Once-in-a-lifetime shot.  But I had to give it up, just couldn’t get close enough, and anyway - down that deep, his vibrant rainbow colors didn’t show up much, as everything fades to shades of blue-gray.  In fact, there really wasn’t much light at all.  A check of my waterproof watch confirmed that it was getting on evening, time had totally gotten away from me.  (Snorkeling isn’t like scuba in that regard - you never run out of air, well, Xcept between breaths, but, oh - U know what I mean!)  

Anyway - the sun was down, the tide was coming in, I was outside the reef, by myself, and I was just realizing that not a soul in the world knew where I was.  “Ding” - on goes one of those red warning lights in my brain - this isn’t smart.  Time to get out.  But, not wanting to waste a moment of time there, and probably also due to the fact that I am more comfortable swimming underwater than on the surface, down I go again to that irresistible sandy canyon floor, to proceed back up the reef along it’s outer slope.  Right then of course something happens that has never happened to me before - I see a shark.  A Shark - between me and the reef, & we are swimming towards each other.  This shark is not a monster, but he is bigger than me, & here I am, in His back yard, in His house, in His dining room…  on His Plate!  I am hit by a blast of panic so powerful, it feels like every single cell in my body desperately wants to claw my way straight up out of the ocean & scream SHAAAARRRRRRK!!! Luckily, there is a small part of my brain, back in the corner somewhere, that hangs onto logic just enough to remind me that I cannot actually climb Out of the water to safety, but only succeed in thrashing about on the surface, which is Xactly what attracts sharks to come check you out in the first place (Thank You Navy divers for that bit of wisdom in your scuba class!).  Secondly, it reminds me that I’m about a quarter mile from shore, and there is no one there to hear me anyway (you dummy!).  And thirdly - my heart is crashing around in my chest so violently that I am in much greater risk of dyeing of a heart attack than a shark attack - So Get A GRIP!   Right here, a nice deep breath would be therapeutic, but that is out of the question of course, as I am still under some 60 feet of water.  With immense effort, I manage to quench my panic enough to talk myself carefully & slowly back to the surface, grab a few of those deep breaths, and get back under where I can see around a bit still.  The shark has turned aside, and quite unconcernedly proceeds out and away.  Again with Extreme difficulty, I just manage to turn my back on this guy & head home again, only to - did you guess it?, yes? / no? - only to meet the second shark, also between me and the reef, also coming towards me, but (whew!) who also turns aside, & fades out into the depths.  

At this point, I finally remember the camera around my neck, & can’t quite believe I have just seen TWO sharks, and not even attempted to get a picture!  Who will believe me without proof?!?  I am actually (briefly) tempted to go after them, but a swift kick from that logic center gets me back on track, and I finally make it over the reef and back to shore without further trouble.

I have never seen another shark in person.  I know some people make a habit of it, but for me, once was enough.  They would poo poo the risk, but the fact remains that sharks do occasionally kill people.  To meet a predator that is capable of eating you, in his environment (that is so foreign to you) - that is a life-changing event, even if you escape untouched.  It causes you to ponder the fact that most animals live in this fear constantly, and what a great thing it is that dinosaurs are extinct!  Well, it did me anyway.

Did I ever tell you about the time…..

     I was hiking in Glacier (Park, of course) one really fine spring day.  I had chosen an overnight hike that I had done before - one of my favorites, as I had not yet visited that area this season.  It was a fairly easy trail, open & high, that allowed for really exquisite views as well as close up enjoyment of lots of beautiful wild flowers just breaking their way through the melting snow.  This trail was remote enough to avoid a lot of the day-tripper crowd, but relaxed enough to always have some traffic, especially on such fine days.  I was by myself, as usual.  I almost always hiked & camped alone in Glacier.  This was mostly my habit, and preference, and more often than not I strove to avoid any human contact at all.  It wasn’t difficult in those days, and was more in line with my reasons for being there.  Aside from just soaking in the beauty of it all, I was totally into the ‘communing with nature’ thing, 1 on 1.  

     This day was different though.  I was feeling a bit more sociable, not minding meeting the occasional hiker in passing.  I may even have been showing off a little.  As I recall, this was my 3^rd or 4^th season in the park, and I was getting to feel comfortable, experienced, & well equipped.  I was sporting a top-of-the-line pack, with a hi-tech snow tent.  I had a down mummy bag & a down parka.  Svea stove and freeze-dried food, about the latest of everything, carefully & gradually acquired over the years.  This trip, I was even sporting nice new gators, crampons, & an ice axe.  I was the picture of ‘pro’.  
     The ice gear was because this trail, at this time of year, crossed a really nice snowfield part way up.  In the fall, it would be a fairly easy walk across this steep scree slope, but until then the trail was lost under this immense field of ice & snow, which tended to get really slick, especially in the afternoons when the sun warmed it just enough to melt the surface.  As you know, there is nothing slipperier than wet ice, and I had seen people fall here several times before - ending up in really undignified tangles of gear & limbs & lost clothing, etc.  Hence the ice gear - Not going to happen to me!  (Yeah, right.)  

     So, 2^nd day, on the way out, here I was, cruising along about the middle of the snowfield, enjoying everything about the day, and instantly - I mean, No warning at all - I’m upside down in mid air.  Not much confusion, just total surprise - I slipped!  (I mean, dude!, I’m wearing crampons!, I have 50 pounds in my pack!, I have an ice axe in my hand!  How could I have just slipped like that?!?).  Next instant, Slam!, Flat on my back, already sliding Fast down the slope.  OK, no panic, here’s where mental preparedness kicks in, I have the gear for this, I know what to do.  Emergency release buckle gets me out of the pack quickly.  I flip over onto my chest, draw my ice axe underneath me (it is attached to my wrist with a leather thong, so it’s right there when I need it), and sliding now feet first, twist the point into the ice, (all the while of course keeping my knees bent, feet in the air - don’t want to chance catching the crampons in the ice during this maneuver as that would only flip me head-over-heals, bad idea!)  

     Nothing happens.  I seemingly don’t even slow down.  Starting to worry - this isn’t how it’s supposed to go.  I seize the shaft of the axe two handed, and slam the spike into the ice with all my weight & strength - bounces right out.  Again, same result.  Now I’m going Really fast, & running out of snowfield.  I have no idea what’s below it - can’t see that from the trail.  Interestingly, I’m also very aware of the fact that there are several people on the trail above watching all this, must be interesting.  I hit a ridge in the snowfield & become momentarily airborne - I am really moving now.  

     The ice below this ridge is different, clear, very hard, but also wet.  Time for one last try, tuck the axe under again & twist in the point, same result - nothing.  I’m off balance now & sliding almost sideways when Slam - I hit the cornice at the edge of the ice.  It’s like a frozen wave, or dune, at the very edge of the ice formed when the snow curled up there in the wind during some past blizzard… and it stops me.  About a half a second later my pack slams into me & also stops.  Amazing.  

     We just rest there for a bit, recuperate, catch our breath.  I think I tried to peer over the cornice, but I couldn’t see anything, so - not going there.  Check my self over - sore knee, nothing major (no blood).  Check my gear - all there.  Tie my pack to my belt with a cord so it follows along, 10 feet behind or so, and proceed to very carefully cut steps into the ice with the axe that I can anchor my crampon toes into.  Thusly, I creep slowly back up to the trail, no further incidents.  

     That whole adventure took about an hour, and I now have the trail to myself again.  With much more care I finished the crossing, stowed my crampons, and walked back out to my waiting truck.  At one point farther down the slope, I was able to look back and see that the cornice that stopped me was actually hanging over the edge of a cliff (where they typically form), some 400 feet above a pile of broken rock.  

Don’t know why I woke up thinking about this, it was some 40 yrs ago.  Just a reminder of how short life could have been, I guess.

Let us caress those around us, and those things we find nearby, lest we disturb the delicate divine pattern or plan, and perhaps cause our own demise, or inadvertently open calamities door. 

[The patient died because the damn suction device wouldn’t work.  We couldn’t establish an airway.  Identifying the problem & replacing the device should have worked, and it did, once - but not the next time!  Can our lives really hang on cheap plastic parts molded in China or Mexico?  (“well no - and yes!”) ]

parallel universes?

sun aug 5th, ’12.

reincarnation?  parallel universes?  i can understand the concept, the interest - 

woke up this morning from a dream (as usual), this time i had been revisiting a home that we had owned & lived in for years, where our kids largely grew up.  an old country home - i remember the first time i ever saw it - i was visiting a friend that was living there, & the first words out of my mouth when i got out of the car were “is this place for sale?”  i was so immediately taken with it, but not seriously enquiring, not wanting to disturb my friends living situation, or even thinking i was anywhere near buying a house.  but he replied “maybe - u never know”.  & as it turned out, we did buy it - quite soon.

this morning we had driven up to the old place, just barely making it - as it was early spring & the snow & mud were incredibly slick - an annual challenge here to get anything not 4 wheel drive up close.  as i took in the old charm of the house & its surrounding leafless woods & fields, i immediately re-envisioned the warm homey interior where so many memories resided, and simultaneously became aware that i was awakening from yet another familiar dream - one visited many times past, and as i considered, again one that had no place in this waking reality.  

interestingly, i fought this falseness, wanting to disprove it somehow.  consciously i was able to slow the wakening enough to probe further in this alternate memory to also recall the house we had been in before moving to this one, and even the one before that!  amazing!  three consecutive residences, all as familiar as anyone would expect their past to be, & all as fictional as last night’s tv movie.  

the melancholy of the moment remained with me thru my morning routine, enough so that i was late leaving for work & even forgot my watch.  so strange, this existence of ours...