parallel universes?

sun aug 5th, ’12.

reincarnation?  parallel universes?  i can understand the concept, the interest - 

woke up this morning from a dream (as usual), this time i had been revisiting a home that we had owned & lived in for years, where our kids largely grew up.  an old country home - i remember the first time i ever saw it - i was visiting a friend that was living there, & the first words out of my mouth when i got out of the car were “is this place for sale?”  i was so immediately taken with it, but not seriously enquiring, not wanting to disturb my friends living situation, or even thinking i was anywhere near buying a house.  but he replied “maybe - u never know”.  & as it turned out, we did buy it - quite soon.

this morning we had driven up to the old place, just barely making it - as it was early spring & the snow & mud were incredibly slick - an annual challenge here to get anything not 4 wheel drive up close.  as i took in the old charm of the house & its surrounding leafless woods & fields, i immediately re-envisioned the warm homey interior where so many memories resided, and simultaneously became aware that i was awakening from yet another familiar dream - one visited many times past, and as i considered, again one that had no place in this waking reality.  

interestingly, i fought this falseness, wanting to disprove it somehow.  consciously i was able to slow the wakening enough to probe further in this alternate memory to also recall the house we had been in before moving to this one, and even the one before that!  amazing!  three consecutive residences, all as familiar as anyone would expect their past to be, & all as fictional as last night’s tv movie.  

the melancholy of the moment remained with me thru my morning routine, enough so that i was late leaving for work & even forgot my watch.  so strange, this existence of ours...